I Will Not Go Quietly

Last night, I decided that I wanted to drink coffee and contemplate this morning, so I hurried through getting ready this morning. On the drive in, I was really wanting to hear "I Will Not Go Quietly" by Don Henley. I'm not ready to think about whether that means anything. It wasn't on the iPhone so I (shoot... I had an iPod with me that had it on it and I didn't even think of that until just now). Anyhow, I ended up listening to "I Want Everything" by Hope 7. It's a bit anthemic and I guess it had to do.

So I got to work early, got my oatmeal and coffee made and then sat at the table in my pod so that I could just sit. Except for a couple of time checks (before deciding to just set a timer) I didn't look at my iPhone. No computer, no iPad. Just me. Alone with my thoughts. Have to admit I wasn't sure I liked it. If I can, I'll do it again tomorrow, maybe it'll be a new thing. Maybe I'll grow tired of it. Not sure yet.

But it's hard to know... did my need (or plans) for solitude produce my need for the Henley song, or are they coming from that same area I don't want to confront? I am reading a book that's a bit challenging (no, not Moby Dick. That's a lot challenging in how much it's boring me.)... the first part of the book I really liked. But the second part is way out there. I may buy the book and only regularly re-read the first part while ignoring the last part.

I ended up listening to Airplanes by B.o.B. feat. Haley Williams...

Singing
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Rapping
Yeah
I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
Cause after all the partyin' and smashin' and crashin'
And all the glitz and the glam and the fashion
And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness
And when you're staring at that phone in your lap
And you hoping but them people never call you back
But that's just how the story unfolds
You get another hand soon after you fold
And when your plans unravel
And they sayin' what would you wish for
If you had one chance
So airplane airplane sorry I'm late
I'm on my way so don't close that gate
If I don't make that then I'll switch my flight
And I'll be right back at it by the end of the night

Singing
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Rapping
Somebody take me back to the days
Before this was a job, before I got paid
Before it ever mattered what I had in my bank
Yeah back when I was tryin' to get into the subway
And back when I was rappin' for the hell of it
But now a days we rappin' to stay relevant
I'm guessin that if we can make some wishes outta airplanes
Then maybe yo maybe I'll go back to the days
Before the politics that we call the rap game
And back when ain't nobody listened to my mix tape
And back before I tried to cover up my slang
But this is for the Cada, what's up Bobby Ray
So can I get a wish to end the politics
And get back to the music that started this [...]
So here I stand and then again I say
I'm hopin' we can make some wishes outta airplanes

Singing
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Yep...

If I don't make that then I'll switch my flight
And I'll be right back at it by the end of the night